The First Ever Buzzard Blog Guest Post: Taylor Buzzard

This is a guest post by Taylor Buzzard.
Greetings, Buzzard Blog readers!
I am honored to have been invited by my husband to try out guest-blogging. It’s kind of like guest-starring on a TV show, but much more exciting. How so? My name won’t flash on the screen for a millisecond only to be forgotten. Rather, my article will be front and center for a whole day! Hopefully I can come up with something worthwhile to share so as not to waste your time.A good way to kick off this venture might be to share a bit about how this guest-blogging gig all came to pass…Throughout my life, I have been an achiever. I thrive on applying myself and seeing results. These characteristics held true as a student, as an athlete, and as a young newlywed working in youth ministry. I like to work hard and I like to create.Over the past year and a half, I have experienced the immense joy of being a mother for the first time. I love this role. My first-born son, Cru, is 19 months old, and another son is due to arrive in 4 months. I did not grow up dreaming of marriage and family, and I certainly did not have my childrens’ names picked out by the time I reached high school (like some girls do). To be honest, I was intimidated by the motherhood task before me, and not certain of how I would perform. But, the Lord is faithful! He has channeled his joy through my son and directly into my heart, filling me up with awe of his glory to levels that I never could have imagined. I get so much delight from being a mom—it has become my surprise passion. I love feeding my son. I love bathing my son. I love chasing my son around our condo complex parking lot. I love taking him around town and observing him catch strangers’ eyes and strike up toddler conversation. I love telling him about Jesus. And I am so edified by our decision that I stay home to raise our children.But, the past few months I have begun to feel a bit antsy. I have struggled with feeling useless, and doubting that I am using my energy and abilities to the extent that God desires. It has taken quite a bit of prayer and conversation to get to the bottom of “why”, but the mystery has been solved: I need an outlet, a way to continue using my gifts as in the days of old, to apply myself and to create on an adult level.In my husband’s quest to find a solution, he kindly offered that I consider guest-writing for his blog. I’ve always enjoyed writing, and haven’t done it for some time. So, here I am! I’m a bit rusty, but I should get warmed up here in no time. Hopefully you blog readers will enjoy a bit of a feminine touch and perspective from time to time. And, I’d love to hear from mothers out there who have had similar struggles—comment away! Look out for an upcoming post with my reflections on Ted Tripp's book, Shepherding a Child’s Heart.~ Taylor Buzzard